Monday, December 12, 2011

Things That Annoy Me Today

Or, rather, things that annoy me every day but are even more annoying today.

1.  “When you have time could you…” and then they stand right in front of you until you stop whatever it is that you’re doing and do what they’re asking.

2.  “We need to get together on this and figure something out.”  You reply with, “This is what we decided on last time,” meaning that this is what they decided on last time.  “Oh.  Well, it’s not enough.  We need to change it.”  Again.  And by the way, thanks for friggen telling me.  Can you please just make up your mind and stick with something for once?

3.  My cat, constantly underfoot and meowing.  Yes, I know, he can’t help it, especially when I’m the only one up and about, but some days I just can’t take it. 

4.  Having to effin’ work.  Well, this doesn’t usually annoy me as I do enjoy my job, but I’m not in the most sociable of moods today, so I’m much better off in a cold, dank cave somewhere off the coast of Ireland.  Or Iceland. Or somewhere.  Really.

5.  Constantly being annoyed at every.  Little.  Thing.  that happens.  GAH.

~The Crazy, Easily Annoyed Woman in the Corner Bawling

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Oh hai!

So, you’ve noticed that I’ve changed my blog title after all this time, huh?  Yeah.  Well, there’s a reason behind that.  Three to be exact.

There are three parts to my new blog title, and three new goals in my life: loosening up, letting go, and learning to live again.  These are the things I wish to accomplish over the next twelve months.  To be able to loosen up and have a little fun, even when things look bleak.  To be able to let go of the things that hold me back, whether they be fair-weather friends or my husband’s unemployment.  To learn to live again, to embrace life like I once did before everything went into the toilet so spectacularly on December 31, 2009.

I’m on a mission to find me again, if it kills me. 

~TCL

Friday, July 1, 2011

Solar Eclipse and the State of My Life

Very few people really know all that’s going on in my life right now.  And even the ones that are nodding their heads right now, reading this, thinking they do, really don’t know the half of it. 

But that’s just life.  I get to a point where my misery is so much that I can’t even stand to listen to myself, so I clam up and just stop talking about anything serious.  It all becomes about trivial things.  And while that can be good, by getting my mind onto other topics, it isn’t always the best course of action, either.

What can you do?

Today’s horoscope:

Today's Solar Eclipse can be a harbinger of an energetic shift within your family. You could bury your head in the sand and be totally surprised by what happens, or you can co-create your future by living the change you seek. Start by sitting down and writing a list of resolutions, as if it is New Year's Day. Focusing your intentions during the eclipse plants significant seeds of thought in your fertile imagination.

Hmm.  Interesting idea.  A list of resolutions?  How much space do I get?  LOL  I suppose it can’t hurt to give it a shot though, can it?  Therefore, I present you with my list.  Some are short term, some are very much long term, but these are all things that I think need to be resolved eventually.

1. Find a manner of relaxing that will actually allow me to relax. 

2. Get better at planning healthy meals.  I’m pretty good at this already, but the bad meals call to me far too often these days.

3. Become financially stable.  This year has brought some serious upheaval to my already financially weak life.  I guess the good news is, it’s finally July and we’re on the back-side of the year now.

4. Move, if we have to.  If not, make the house nicer. 

5. Pending the outcome of #4, paint, get new carpet, buy some damn curtains and/or new vertical blinds.  LOL 

6. Write more.

7. Publish more.

8. Find a way to start liking myself again.  It’s been more years than I can count since I was able to look myself in the face and be content with the person I am. 

9. Get healthy.  This doesn’t necessarily mean ‘lose weight’ either.  If I get back into the weight training, I’ll probably gain a bit, but be healthier overall.  Make sense?

And the biggie:

10.  Learn to let go.  I have a few so-called friends that are more toxic than helpful and yet, I can’t let them go.  Why?  Because there isn’t anyone left to take that space.  I need to learn to be okay with the fact that I have only one or two real, true, honest-to-goodness friends.  I need to be okay with that.  Why?  Because those two friends?  They are amazing.  And when your friends are that amazing?  You don’t need any more than two.

As a side note, I have some very amazing online friends, too.  Please don’t feel slighted if you think you don’t count ‘cause you do.  All of the love, support and honesty you’ve given me over the years is irreplaceable.  The sad part of this is, the few that I’m referring to, won’t know it’s them (and/or are too modest to broadcast it LOL) and those that are of the toxic variety will immediately believe it’s them that I mean.  Gotta love that crazy Catch-22 of the Internet world, right? 

Thanks for listening/reading.  Amazingly enough, I actually do feel better than I did just an hour ago.  Thank you.

~TCL

*Today’s post is brought to you by the word ‘amazing’ and all it’s variant forms.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Facebook…

Has stolen my ability to blog, I think. 

I’m going to try and fix that now, as I really do enjoy blogging, even if no one out there is really reading this any longer.  I don’t care.  I like talking to myself.  Just ask anyone I work with. *G*

Anyway, things have been rough in this neck of the woods, so I’ve put off posting to keep from being a whiner.  Not that that’s helped, it’s only helped keep me from being a public whiner.  But I digress… 

Look this way in the near future for witty commentary, amusing anecdotes, and mass hysteria.

I only promise that the last one will come true.

Until later,

Your very sorry crazy hamster-cat-book-foodie-Lady

Monday, January 10, 2011

Sad Days

It’s been a few days and hopefully now I can get through this without breaking down.

Last Wednesday, January 5th, we lost our beloved boy, Tiger.  He’d been not feeling well for awhile, but over the weekend, he’d started to come back to himself.  We’d thought he was getting better.  We were wrong.

When I got up Wednesday morning, he was lying on his side in the girls’ toy room.  I reached down to pet him and he barely moved.  He did nothing but lie in Troy’s arms all day where he eventually passed. 

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His passing was the hardest thing I’ve had to face, animal-wise, since he was utterly and completely my kids’ cat.  He’d follow those two kids around everywhere.  He spent every night curled up beside them in their beds.  You’d tell him, “Tiger, your girls are in bed,” and he’d do a quick scan of the living room and then head upstairs to join them.  And heaven help you if they were somewhere else for a night… poor cat had no idea what to do with himself.  So, he’d terrorize the other cats and spend the night knocking things over. 

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I’m going to miss that cross-eyed little freak cat.  He was a very special animal and we’ll never forget him.

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We love you, Tigey.

~Mama, Daddy, Taylor and Madison

(with a special wish from Darby, Cali, and Noelle)