Tuesday, December 21, 2010

‘Tis the Season

For reflection, remembrance, and looking forward.

I’m all about looking forward this year.  In a little over a week, it’ll be a year since my husband lost his job and the struggles that we have faced this past year have come close to overwhelming me to the point of breaking.  However, despite it all, we’ve managed to not just remain together, but remain strong as well.  In my opinion, that’s nothing short of a miracle. 

When I look back, however, I know that we have come a long way and that things will eventually have to get better.  I know this.  It’s remembering it that is hard.  But, that said, this isn’t the first time I’ve lived through hard times – we had a lot of them when I was a kid.  And honestly, those past hardships are what have formed me into the person I am today.  I just hope that, in the future, my kids are able to take something positive away from all this. 

And now that this is beginning to sound like a rehash of my last blog post…

It’s been a little over a year since my grandfather passed and, for the most part, I do okay in the day-to-day without him.  However, when I’m gathering my Christmas recipes together, I can’t help but think of him, and to constantly remind myself that I’m not making him a basket this year just kills me.  He was always all about the sweets and I know he’d love some of the new things I’ve tried this year.  I guess he’ll just have to live vicariously through his great-grandchildren until I’m able to bake for him again. 

And speaking of baking… my gods, have I been doing a lot of it!  In addition to all the cookies, fudge, Chex Mix, pepperoni bread and what not, I made a three-layer birthday cake as well.  What was I thinking?  Oh, yeah.  That’s right.  It was peanut butter and chocolate.  I wasn’t thinking.  LOL  Oh well, it was well received and that’s all that matters. 

Okay, so now that I’ve depressed everyone yet again… I’ll end this with some fun and happy pictures.  K?

First are my Red Velvet Gooey Butter Cookies.  These things rock.  The recipe is here: Red Velvet Gooey Butter Cookies.  I loved these because they reminded me so much of my beloved Chocolate Crinkles that my mom makes every year, but with yummy Red Velvet instead.  Win.

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And these lovely little flat things are Brownie Cookies, courtesy of my pal, Deena.  Recipe is here: Brownies & Cream Sandwich Cookies (although I didn’t sandwich mine).  These cookies rock on so many levels.  Easy.  Tasty.  Crispy.  Chewy.  Everything a good brownie should be, but in cookie form.  Double win. 

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These are S’mores Cups from my other pal, Alana.  Recipe is here: S’Mores Cups.  These are great for when the kids want to help out.  Quick, easy, almost instant gratification.  Win again.  Although, yeah, mine don’t quite look as pretty as those in the picture on the website.  LOL

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Gift bags for the kids’ teachers.  I almost fainted when I realized Princess has FOUR teachers this year.  Thank the gods for cookies!

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My plants growing in the garage.  Yeah, in December.  They’re really doing well, considering the time of year. 

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And lastly, the Christmas tree at the District.  Pretty, isn’t it?  The lights would change color and flash in time with the music being played.

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Merry Christmas, Happy Belated Hanukkah, and a Blessed Solstice.

Oh, and Happy New Year while I’m at it. 

~Crazy Baking Lady

Thursday, October 21, 2010

It’s Been Awhile

Yes, I know, and I’m sorry.  But then, I doubt anyone’s actually been reading lately anyway, so does it matter?  LOL  Probably not.

So, what’s been keeping me away?  Well, what hasn’t?  Mostly, its been my emotional roller coaster of a life keeping me away, but also, I’ve been very down over some personal things and haven’t wanted to really inflict that upon anyone anymore than I needed to. 

However, despite feeling like my life is at a dead end and nowhere to go but down, I’ve been making an active effort to be a better person.  To be happier, not so judgmental, and more than anything, to just not let things bother me so much.  And well, to be quite honest with you, it’s not been working very well.  LOL  It seems that the people surrounding me are bound and determined to bring me down. 

And yet, I keep trying. 

However, there are some good things in my life.  Both of my kids are happy and healthy.  They’re both also actively looking forward to Halloween as well.  But then, who isn’t?  My husband and I are as happy as we can be and are getting along well, despite the financial crush we’re under.  My cats, despite almost losing Darby a few months ago, are as fat and obnoxious as ever.  The hamster?  She’s as tubby as can be and happy.  Hell, even my fish are happy. 

So, I’m trying.  I really, really am. 

And to ease the pain of my griping, here are some happy pictures.

Cali watching Noelle. 

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And my favorite fish, Morgan.  And see, doesn’t he look just ecstatic???  LOL

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Dashboard Confessional Part 1

I often get discouraged living in the city like I do. You tend to see nothing but buildings and billboards and stuff blocking up the skyline. You focus so much on the grey and the bland and the yuck and you forget to look for the beauty.

Lately, however, I’ve suddenly rediscovered it. From the windshield of my truck.

Most of these were taking on my way to work. And although there’s a Walgreens or the like in the picture, there’s still that beauty that you too often miss.

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Leaving the complex I live in…

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And again, I think this is leaving the complex. Almost looks like I live in paradise… Almost.

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I have a sick fascination with taking pictures while at stoplights, so look for more similar posts from me. And yeah, I know. I’m a dork.

~Crazy Lady

Monday, March 8, 2010

Some Days

I think that I should re-title this blog to something along the lines of “Crazy Lady’s Handbook for New Secretaries Dealing With Plumbers and Other Construction Personnel”.

Why?

Lookit.  (Please click on the picture for a full-sized view)

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What’s that third word?  Persuaded?  Pursued?  Ohhhh, that’s right, it’s provided.  It’s an owner PROVIDED used water softener. 

Whew.  And here I was imagining the owner trying to convince this poor, used water softener to come live in his building, soften his water, and get some good quality salt…  LOL

Although, I am a bit saddened that it’s not pursued.  I think that watching the owner chase the water softener down and then persuade it to come work for him might have been fun.

Until the next service ticket lands on my desk…

~TCL

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Lost

Have you ever felt like you didn’t fit in?  That you were the square peg society kept trying to shove into that round hole?  Well, that’s me on any given day.  And while I’ve generally learned to live with it, sometimes it sneaks up and kicks me in the rear, causing a face-plant in the cement before me. 

Anyway, for a period of several weeks, I’ve felt even more out of place than I usually do.  Mind you, I know that I don’t have a place – my sense of humor is a bit left of center and my personality leaves something to be desired most of the time, but hey, I’m who I am and I’m okay with that.  Thus, the getting used to not quite being accepted.

So, back to the subject.  I think. 

I feel isolated, alone, and well, lost.  I keep reaching out to people and they keep stepping out of my grasp.  And it’s not their fault – they have lives, obligations, other friends… and yet, knowing that doesn’t seem to help.  So, what can you do?

Me, I tend to drown my sorrows in Starbucks, peanut butter M&M’s and indulge in some writing.  But even that doesn’t seem to be helping lately.  Matter of fact, it’s only turned my writing maudlin.  Just what I need… a heroine that’s depressed. LOL  Boy, her hero better have some pretty broad shoulders because he’s going to need to take the weight of her world onto his shoulders here before long. 

And now?  I’m done whining.  For now.  Tune in tomorrow, things could change. 

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Thursday, January 7, 2010

Hamster Watch

So, anyone tired of this little one yet?

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I hope not, because I’m having a ton of fun with her. 

So much so, I even video taped her stuffing her pouches.  Yeah, I need a life, I know it…

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Friendship Quotes for the New Year

I have a hoard of these stashed around my office.  My very best friend had a desk calendar in 2008 that was all just wonderful quotes and every now and then, she’s gather a bunch and send them to me. And yeah, while I know it’s now 2010, I stashed them somewhere and only just found them again.  LOL

So, here are a few to make you smile and hopefully think of your best friend.

“Friendship is the golden thread that ties the heart of all the world.”  - John Evelyn

“A good friend – like a tube of toothpaste – comes through in a tight squeeze.”  - Anonymous (and LOL!)

“Friendships are fragile things, and require as much handling as any other fragile and precious thing.” – Randolph S. Bourne (something I think we all need to keep in mind)

“Along with my favorite memories, and right beside my highest hopes, I keep a very precious reminder that… we’ll never be apart.” – Jenn Davids

“A friend is someone who knows the song of your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.” – Anonymous (and in my case, it’d probably be sung back way off key…)

“Did I choose you?  Did you choose me?  And what difference does it make?  All that really matters, friend, is that we chose together.” – Lois Wyse

“Only you… think I’m funny upside down on an arm chair at ridiculous hours of the morning.” – Dorothy-Ann Parent

“A friend is one before whom I may think aloud.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson (dedicated to Red because the gods only know, she’s heard more than her share)

“Friends are God’s way of taking care of us.” – Anonymous

And lastly, a quote from one of my favorite sources:

“‘Friendship,’ said Christopher Robin, ‘is a very comforting thing to have.’” – A. A. Milne

And that’s it for today!

~TCL